Omaha-based indie rock band Bad Self Portraits, consisting of Ingrid Howell (Vocals, Bass), Cole Kempcke (Guitar), Connor Paintin (Guitar, Keys), and Jesse White (Drums, Vocals), have just unveiled their brand new single I Think I’m Going to Hell, the final single and title track of their upcoming debut album!
I Think I’m Going To Hell is a searing reflection on childhood guilt, religious trauma, and OCD, capturing the band at their most raw and vulnerable. Written by lead vocalist Ingrid Howell, the song recounts a formative childhood memory through the lens of undiagnosed OCD and religious anxiety. I am loving the gritty and raw touch of the song with Howell’s rich, expressive vocals soaring effortlessly over the memorable indie-rock production. Accompanying Ingrid’s passionate vocal percormance we have soaring guitar riffs nicely intertwined with a killer bass, punchy drums and catchy rhythms that come together to create a moody and gritty listening experience that is giving me mid-to-late 90s golden era of indie rock music! Check it out below!
‘I Think I’m Going To Hell’ is about my traits of OCD, ASD, and anxiety starting when I was a little kid. I was roughly five or six years old in the memory that this all stems from, and I stole a single peanut from the grocery store. I had never purposefully done anything wrong before, and wanted to test what could happen, so I ate the peanut in my room, put the shell in my locked diary, and hid the key above the trim on the inside of my closet. No one caught me, but I knew the ‘man in the sky’ saw me, and I was worried that he’d probably tell my great grandparents too. This song describes the thoughts I had surrounding that fear while growing up, feeling like God couldn’t save me, and ultimately trying to figure out how to process religious trauma.
